Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Coming Soon To a Blog Near You... (my blog, btw)
Also... New news from the Neuropsychologist... Seth Ward is officially ADHD, slightly dyslexic, and...
Evidently, according to the doc and his preliminary initial assessment of my test results... I'm officially OCD. Been that way since I was a little tike. Furthermore, the ADD acts as a nice little compliment to the OCD. I tend to obsess over the things that I can't remember and mull over them - obsessively until I no longer sleep. Causes ALLLLL kinds of guilt and procrastination. Pretty enlightening stuff. It was one of those moments when someone tells you something and its like a GONG goes off that sort of explains the missing piece that describes your whole life's angst.
I've always playfully suspected OCD because when I was a kid I used to get up 4 times a night to check the oven and door locks, and worry constantly that I had every disease that I would hear or read about, and worry that a fire would consume us all in the night, and worry about my sisters dying, and worry about the end times, and worry that my mom and dad were getting divorced, even though they were and still are hot on each other. It it wasn't for my mom and dad's patient understanding, I'd probably be in the looney bin. It became a weekly routine to wake my dear old dad up in the middle of the night with my new fear and obsession for the week. I can still see my dad sitting across the living room, in his recliner, with his disheveled hair and wearing his robe telling me, "no son, your growth isn't stunted and you don't have a brain tumor. It's all in your mind, well not the tumor just your worryin' about it. You are perfectly fine. Now, lets pray."
I suppose that tendency to obsess never went away.
I guess I just thought I eventually grew out of those old OCD tendencies. Try again. Still there evidently. I'll hear the full report next week after the doc and his crew have had a chance to decipher the code of my noggin. And good lord, what a test. All day at looking at puzzles and answering the MOST probing questions imaginable. Sheesh. However when the real couch sessions started, it turned out to be pretty darn cool.
Anyways, until then, you will get a full update on my theories of planet X and how it will very soon change our world... forever.